So today I took my first hour long walk, it felt great to be moving again, and I can already tell you that I am sore, lol. It’s been way to long when mere walking makes you sore. The cold shower was a welcome relief. As I was walking through the park I used to walk all the time; I remembered as I passed them, that this park is also a challenge course. On the side of the long winding sidewalk through woods and around lot’s of soccer fields, are challenges. Equipment to challenge you in more then just running and walking. Pull up bars, crunch pad, swinging bars, a balance beam etc. So if I have the time, which I didn’t today due to an incoming storm; I’m going to try and go back around after my running is done and TRY to do the challenges. It would be fun! And now for some picture from today’s walk!
1. The storm in the distance. This is what I would imagine a massive snow avalanche would look like, coming down a mountain. That would be scary.
2. The flood water has reseeded at last. Now the park looks more like a swamp then a raging river.
So on a whim I checked my weight this morning. 270, the 6.8 pounds lost in two days! I wonder what I weighed Monday? I really wish I knew now. Judging by the fact that my face has a little definition now, probably in the 280’s somewhere, maybe more.
I must confess that I am not completely doing a juice fast. Juice has become more of a meal replacement instead. I am drinking two juices and eating one plant based vegan meal a day. I just don’t have the will power yet to drink nothing but juice so this is my alliterative. It seems to be working!
I have created a plan to be able to run full on for two hours straight by December. The goal is to wake up every morning from then on and run for two hours. Why I need to do be doing this, I don’t know; I have been receiving these missions from God for awhile now and this is the latest of them. For the first week I will be walking an hour to get used to moving again. It does not really matter where I go, just as long as I turn around after thirty minutes. Then for the next two weeks I will be walking for 9 minutes and running for one for the full hour. Then for two weeks walking 8 minutes, running 2. Followed by two weeks of 7:3, 6:4, then at 5:5 I will move on to an hour and a half. Moving on to two weeks of 4:6, 3:7, 2:8. At 1:9 I will move forward to going for two hours until I am running full on without any walking. After I am used to this, I can work on speed. No doubt my running will look more like a slow jog at this point, lol! But if I stick to my plan I will be able to do this! And this is of course going every day, morning or evening based on my schedule and the weather. (On the rare occasion that it’s cooler, I can go anytime.)
SO here I go! Today’s walk will take me to the rivers. I want to see if they are still as high as they were yesterday.
Not doing to bad so far, had a juice this morning before heading out to a basketball championship for work. I took lot’s and lots of pictures. Meanwhile outside the river began to spill over and took over the football and baseball fields and was still raising when I left. Couldn’t help but notice that the water is getting dangerously high to the tall bridge. And that river is only a few streets from my apt… It won’t make it to my apt, but still… Anyways when I left I had another juice and am now waiting for a friend at Starbucks to that we can hang out. 🙂
I broke, sigh. I was hungry, I forgot to bring a juice when I went out with my friend, and when he started to eat… So I will be starting all over again tomorrow. I CAN do this, it’s just a lot harder then I thought it was going to be. At least I know this going in to redo my day one.
I have to loose weight now, I now have a goal! Today when John and I got together it was to begin writing a movie script. I was originally only supposed to film it with a few walk on parts as an extra. Now I will be filming it and playing a very main character. I’m already working on how I am going to be doing both at the same time, lol. It involves tripods, 🙂 Anyways for the beginning of the film I’m fat, so I will be fine for the first part. However when we beginning shooting the rest and bulk of the film in October, I will need to be a much smaller size. So I have to focus! None of this breaking the fast on a whim of hunger. And I’m going to need to start working out earlier then planned if I am going to be the right size for this roll by October!
So here I go again…
This time I will leave you with my current weight, I finally got a battery for my scale.
Yesterday wasn’t so bad. I stayed at home, afraid that I would pull over at the nearest restaurant and eat everything I saw. Commercials were the worst though so I found myself with other things to do every time food come up on TV.
Today however is much harder. Today I am starving, or my brain thinks it is; and I suddenly can’t remember WHY I am doing this to myself??? All I can think about is a giant Burrito for Bullritos across the street! The thought that I should go eat one and re-start this fast tomorrow wont leave my brain. I need to run to the store, but I am terrified that if I do I will pull into the parking lot across the street on the way and grab that burrito… WHY?!?! Black beans, rice, guacamole, tomatoes, cilantro… I am SO HUNGRY!!!! F#@& the juice!!! Why can’t I restart tomorrow??? Bangs head up against wall.
I knew the first days would be the hardest but… God!
So the day has finally come for my long fast to begin. I have pain reliever ready for the headaches I know are coming from the soon to be Dr Pepper withdrawal symptoms. It’s good that I am on vacation for this, I have no patients at all when I am in caffeine withdrawal, and can get quite nasty to people who talk to me, look at me, glance at me, come within a twenty foot radius of me…
With the many ‘well wishes’, ‘good lucks’ and ‘you’re insane’ messages to help me begin I embark on the long, hard journey to loose weight, create endurance and become physically fit. No more yo-yo dieting, I am making life style changes that are healthy and will keep me going in the right direction. I am doing it for me, I am doing it under God’s orders, and it all begins with a fast.
As thunder rolls outside, I come to realize that I bought the wrong battery for my scale. So I run to my Wii Fit, those batteries are dead too… Great… I glance out my window, I can run to work and use the scale there… but it’s pouring down rain… sigh… perhaps I am not to know how much I weigh? Or more likely, how much I have to loose. Suffice to say, I know I am near 300 pounds. I will try and get to the store at some point today and weigh myself for a proper reading. Until then I will drink my Strawberry, Banana, Apple juice slowly to try to make it last longer… 🙂
I am also in need of that before picture…
Yesterday, was a long day. I had planned to eat all of my favorites for my ‘last meal’, but that didn’t really work out. The cafe I helped open, put so much of my blood, sweat and tears into, was closing. Somehow most of the crew that was there at the beginning was still there in the end. So together we took it apart, sold the last of our food and said goodbye. We finished the night by heading to the pub where we drank, remembered and toasted to new beginnings whatever those might be. So for me it was more then just the end of cheese, butter, oils and for a little while at least, food. It was the end of an era. The end of the days of working in the nice calm cafe when the deli became to overwhelming. Where will work now, when I need sanctuary from the inanity that is the deli? Yesterdays blog title would have been called: The End, because it was, in so many ways. But today is a new beginning, and it’s time to move forward.
The brain is an amazing part of the body, there is so much about it we don’t know or understand. The CPU of our body which can only be run with our fuel pump, the heart. Sometimes it will do something so amazing, so mind boggling that you have to wonder…
Some odd months ago, I’m not sure when; I was at work when suddenly I knew things, I knew a lot of things in fact. My co-workers and I were trying to help a fellow co-worker with her college algebra problems and government homework. Normally I just chime in randomly on the rare occasion I knew something with the math portion, math and I are not friends. We’re maybe-sorta acquaintances in fact, addition and subtraction are on my side as long as you don’t give me more then three number digits. Multiplication and division can be done with a pencil or paper involved. Start adding letters and I’m a goner. Government however, I’m okay with; just don’t try to get me involved in a political debate, I hate them and will dislike you for trying to pull me into an argument I don’t want to have. We all are entitled our own opinions… even if yours is wrong. 🙂
Back on subject, this day was like every other day, I was slicing animal bodies up for human consumption (disgusting!) and Evett was calling out math problems to the portion of the group who knows math; when suddenly I knew the answer, in fact I not only knew the answers, I knew how I got to them. Like a light switch had been flipped upward in my brain, everything made sense and was easy. I started calling out how the equations should be done then told her if she had the right answers. We of course verified these answers before she put them down on paper. It was like I had entered the Twilight Zone. The left half of my brain was suddenly awake and alive and for five hours I used it as much as I could, even asking people to come up with problems so that I could answer them. It was fun and I loved it. The next day it was gone. My co-workers still think I am joking when I state that I don’t know the answers anymore. Or do I? What happened that day…?
In the time since I have often gone back to that day wondering… my only guess is that my neurons were moving to connect to a new synapse and in the progress made a brief connection to a synapse that connects to the other half of my brain. For a moment, I learned that everything I learned growing up is in fact up there… perhaps there is just little to no connection…