Yesterday wasn’t so bad. I stayed at home, afraid that I would pull over at the nearest restaurant and eat everything I saw. Commercials were the worst though so I found myself with other things to do every time food come up on TV.
Today however is much harder. Today I am starving, or my brain thinks it is; and I suddenly can’t remember WHY I am doing this to myself??? All I can think about is a giant Burrito for Bullritos across the street! The thought that I should go eat one and re-start this fast tomorrow wont leave my brain. I need to run to the store, but I am terrified that if I do I will pull into the parking lot across the street on the way and grab that burrito… WHY?!?! Black beans, rice, guacamole, tomatoes, cilantro… I am SO HUNGRY!!!! F#@& the juice!!! Why can’t I restart tomorrow??? Bangs head up against wall.
I knew the first days would be the hardest but… God!
I can do this, I can do this, I can do this…