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Weight Check In Day 6

Published July 14, 2012 by Iniysa

So on a whim I checked my weight this morning. 270, the 6.8 pounds lost in two days! I wonder what I weighed Monday? I really wish I knew now. Judging by the fact that my face has a little definition now, probably in the 280’s somewhere, maybe more.

I must confess that I am not completely doing a juice fast. Juice has  become more of a meal replacement instead. I am drinking two juices  and eating one plant based vegan meal a day. I just don’t have the will power yet to drink nothing but juice so this is my alliterative. It seems to be working!

I have created a plan to be able to run full on for two hours straight by December. The goal is to wake up every morning from then on and run for two hours. Why I need to do be doing this, I don’t know; I have been receiving these missions from God for awhile now and this is the latest of them. For the first week I will be walking an hour to get used to moving again. It does not really matter where I go, just as long as I turn around after thirty minutes. Then for the next two weeks I will be walking for 9 minutes and running for one for the full hour. Then for two weeks walking 8 minutes, running 2. Followed by two weeks of 7:3, 6:4, then at 5:5 I will move on to an hour and a half. Moving on to two weeks of 4:6, 3:7, 2:8. At 1:9 I will move forward to going for two hours until I am running full on without any walking. After I am used to this, I can work on speed. No doubt my running will look more like a slow jog at this point, lol! But if I stick to my plan I will be able to do this! And this is of course going every day, morning or evening based on my schedule and the weather. (On the rare occasion that it’s cooler, I can go anytime.)

SO here I go! Today’s walk will take me to the rivers. I want to see if they are still as high as they were yesterday.

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Day 0 Start Again

Published July 12, 2012 by Iniysa

I broke, sigh. I was hungry, I forgot to bring a juice when I went out with my friend, and when he started to eat… So I will be starting all over again tomorrow. I CAN do this, it’s just a lot harder then I thought it was going to be. At least I know this going in to redo my day one.

I have to loose weight now, I now have a goal! Today when John and I got together it was to begin writing a movie script. I was originally only supposed to film it with a few walk on parts as an extra. Now I will be filming it and playing a very main character.  I’m already working on how I am going to be doing both at the same time, lol. It involves tripods, 🙂 Anyways for the beginning of the film I’m fat, so I will be fine for the first part. However when we beginning shooting the rest and bulk of the film in October, I will need to be a much smaller size. So I have to focus! None of this breaking the fast on a whim of hunger. And I’m going to need to start working out earlier then planned if I am going to be the right size for this roll by October!

So here I go again…

This time I will leave you with my current weight, I finally got a battery for my scale.

276.8 pounds… ouch

Hungry Day 2

Published July 10, 2012 by Iniysa

Yesterday wasn’t so bad. I stayed at home, afraid that I would pull over at the nearest restaurant and eat everything I saw. Commercials were the worst though so I found myself with other things to do every time food come up on TV.

Today however is much harder. Today I am starving, or my brain thinks it is; and I suddenly can’t remember WHY I am doing this to myself??? All I can think about is a giant Burrito for Bullritos across the street! The thought that I should go eat one and re-start this fast tomorrow wont leave my brain. I need to run to the store, but I am terrified that if I do I will pull into the parking lot across the street on the way and grab that burrito… WHY?!?! Black beans, rice, guacamole, tomatoes, cilantro… I am SO HUNGRY!!!! F#@& the juice!!! Why can’t I restart tomorrow??? Bangs head up against wall.

I knew the first days would be the hardest but… God!

I can do this, I can do this, I can do this…

In the Beginning Day 1

Published July 9, 2012 by Iniysa

13:30 (1:30 PM) Central Standard Time

So the day has finally come for my long fast to begin. I have pain reliever ready for the headaches I know are coming from the soon to be Dr Pepper withdrawal symptoms. It’s good that I am on vacation for this, I have no patients at all when I am in caffeine withdrawal, and can get quite nasty to people who talk to me, look at me, glance at me, come within a twenty foot radius of me…

With the many ‘well wishes’, ‘good lucks’ and ‘you’re insane’ messages to help me begin I embark on the long, hard journey to loose weight, create endurance and become physically fit. No more yo-yo dieting, I am making life style changes that are healthy and will keep me going in the right direction. I am doing it for me, I am doing it under God’s orders, and it all begins with a fast.

As thunder rolls outside, I come to realize that I bought the wrong battery for my scale. So I run to my Wii Fit, those batteries are dead too… Great… I glance out my window, I can run to work and use the scale there… but it’s pouring down rain… sigh… perhaps I am not to know how much I weigh? Or more likely, how much I have to loose. Suffice to say, I know I am near 300 pounds. I will try and get to the store at some point today and weigh myself for a proper reading. Until then I will drink my Strawberry, Banana, Apple juice slowly to try to make it last longer… 🙂

I am also in need of that before picture…

Yesterday, was a long day. I had planned to eat all of my favorites for my ‘last meal’, but that didn’t really work out. The cafe I helped open, put so much of my blood, sweat and tears into, was closing. Somehow most of the crew that was there at the beginning was still there in the end. So together we took it apart, sold the last of our food and said goodbye. We finished the night by heading to the pub where we drank,  remembered and toasted to new beginnings whatever those might be. So for me it was more then just the end of cheese, butter, oils and for a little while at least, food. It was the end of an era. The end of the days of working in the nice calm cafe when the deli became to overwhelming. Where will work now, when I need sanctuary from the inanity that is the deli? Yesterdays blog title would have been called: The End, because it was, in so many ways. But today is a new beginning, and it’s time to move forward.

The Great Change

Published June 19, 2012 by Iniysa

After doing a lot of research, I have decided what life style changes I am going to make next and exactly how I am going to do them. I am very excited! My Mom K thinks that I am not happy, and this change will make me more unhappy. I can’t seem to get through to her that I AM happy and that this is just the next step in an exciting adventure.

So what is the big change that will start controversy among the people around me? As of July 9th I will start this big life style change by detoxing with a long Juice Fast. I start my vacation that day so for ten days I will not be surrounded by temptation . During this time I am going to be asking for new juicing recipes and ideas!

My next change will be going from Vegetarian back to Vegan, and not just a Vegan, a plant-based vegan! Now you might be thinking, isn’t a vegan diet plant based anyways? The answer is, now days? No. Not really. There are vegan foods that have so much chemicals that it’s not the same. Besides I want to loose weight here, that’s my first big goal with this, along with adopting a healthy lifestyle I will enjoy. This means I am cutting most oils out of my diet. All oils are pure fat. So I will be using alternatives in my recipes. But I have a while and a lot more research for this one, before it’s upon me.

So, back to the fasting. In preparation: First I need to eat or get rid of basically everything in my fridge and a lot form my pantry too. Buy what I am going to need for at least the first few days and be prepared not to have any plans for the first three days. Just before I start I will be getting a fasting cholesterol check, my weight checked and a before picture done.

So why am I waiting so long to do this when I could be ready in just a few days? Vacation. After my vacation requests had been denied, denied then denied again; finally one was approved. But it’s not until July 9th.

One last thing, I will be trying to keep you up to date with where I am in the fasting then the plant based life style change. I want to say I will update daily, but I know myself.  So at least once a week, then.  I will also keep you up to date with the prep work. The big clean out needs to happen anyways, but it might just be a nightmare. Which is why I haven’t done it yet. 🙂

I also want to post information that I learn while I am doing this. I’ll be trying a lot of new fruits and veggies, so why not share the experience!

Wish me luck!

What’s in a Name?

Published September 24, 2011 by Iniysa

Naming the characters in my Senkrad novels has been one of the toughest things so far in writing. How do I find that perfect name? It has to not only fit, but describe the people I am creating. (Because you don’t describe your characters, they describe themselves, as they take on lives of their own; they have no problem telling you the name you chose is wrong.)

I started my naming adventure with a baby book. Simple, to the point, here is thousands of names, where the name is from and what it means in that culture. Great, helpful unless you’re my characters.  As my story grows, personality’s change; what was once the perfect name is now completely wrong. Do I keep them to the end, then change them risking calling them the wrong name later, because it’s the name I’ve been writing for years and years? Do I randomly choose a name off my Facebook page and forget it? Or do I keep the names I have because that’s the names I will remember. (And I am horrible at remembering names, ask my best friend!)

Names are very important, they are what everyone will remember, even if they never read your book. If I say Edward Cullen to you or Harry Potter (to name two extremely popular characters.) even if you have never touched Twilight or The Sorcerer’s Stone, you know.

So how do you choose your names? Do you keep them or change them?

Write It Again – With Meaning!

Published September 1, 2011 by Iniysa

How is it, that I have started writing the first chapter of my Senkrad novel again? I know it will need to be revised, but unlike several other chapters, this one was done, I liked it! Furthermore, in the new chapter one, I wrote the whole thing in first person. Do you know how insane that is, how it will mean I will now have to re-write everything else into first person if I keep it?

But what if first person is the way this series is supposed to be told? What if this is the change I really needed? The thought of having to completely re-write the entire thing into first person is overwhelming. I can give more feeling, more depth to my characters from this point of view but…

So how do I get up the will to do this? I love to write, with everything in me. The hard part is going back, re-writing, editing, changing things I have spent hours agonizing over typing, deleting and typing again. A complete re-write though…

I’ll completely re-write the first three or four chapters, see where it takes me.