So on a whim I checked my weight this morning. 270, the 6.8 pounds lost in two days! I wonder what I weighed Monday? I really wish I knew now. Judging by the fact that my face has a little definition now, probably in the 280’s somewhere, maybe more.
I must confess that I am not completely doing a juice fast. Juice has become more of a meal replacement instead. I am drinking two juices and eating one plant based vegan meal a day. I just don’t have the will power yet to drink nothing but juice so this is my alliterative. It seems to be working!
I have created a plan to be able to run full on for two hours straight by December. The goal is to wake up every morning from then on and run for two hours. Why I need to do be doing this, I don’t know; I have been receiving these missions from God for awhile now and this is the latest of them. For the first week I will be walking an hour to get used to moving again. It does not really matter where I go, just as long as I turn around after thirty minutes. Then for the next two weeks I will be walking for 9 minutes and running for one for the full hour. Then for two weeks walking 8 minutes, running 2. Followed by two weeks of 7:3, 6:4, then at 5:5 I will move on to an hour and a half. Moving on to two weeks of 4:6, 3:7, 2:8. At 1:9 I will move forward to going for two hours until I am running full on without any walking. After I am used to this, I can work on speed. No doubt my running will look more like a slow jog at this point, lol! But if I stick to my plan I will be able to do this! And this is of course going every day, morning or evening based on my schedule and the weather. (On the rare occasion that it’s cooler, I can go anytime.)
SO here I go! Today’s walk will take me to the rivers. I want to see if they are still as high as they were yesterday.
I broke, sigh. I was hungry, I forgot to bring a juice when I went out with my friend, and when he started to eat… So I will be starting all over again tomorrow. I CAN do this, it’s just a lot harder then I thought it was going to be. At least I know this going in to redo my day one.
I have to loose weight now, I now have a goal! Today when John and I got together it was to begin writing a movie script. I was originally only supposed to film it with a few walk on parts as an extra. Now I will be filming it and playing a very main character. I’m already working on how I am going to be doing both at the same time, lol. It involves tripods, 🙂 Anyways for the beginning of the film I’m fat, so I will be fine for the first part. However when we beginning shooting the rest and bulk of the film in October, I will need to be a much smaller size. So I have to focus! None of this breaking the fast on a whim of hunger. And I’m going to need to start working out earlier then planned if I am going to be the right size for this roll by October!
So here I go again…
This time I will leave you with my current weight, I finally got a battery for my scale.
Yesterday wasn’t so bad. I stayed at home, afraid that I would pull over at the nearest restaurant and eat everything I saw. Commercials were the worst though so I found myself with other things to do every time food come up on TV.
Today however is much harder. Today I am starving, or my brain thinks it is; and I suddenly can’t remember WHY I am doing this to myself??? All I can think about is a giant Burrito for Bullritos across the street! The thought that I should go eat one and re-start this fast tomorrow wont leave my brain. I need to run to the store, but I am terrified that if I do I will pull into the parking lot across the street on the way and grab that burrito… WHY?!?! Black beans, rice, guacamole, tomatoes, cilantro… I am SO HUNGRY!!!! F#@& the juice!!! Why can’t I restart tomorrow??? Bangs head up against wall.
I knew the first days would be the hardest but… God!
So the day has finally come for my long fast to begin. I have pain reliever ready for the headaches I know are coming from the soon to be Dr Pepper withdrawal symptoms. It’s good that I am on vacation for this, I have no patients at all when I am in caffeine withdrawal, and can get quite nasty to people who talk to me, look at me, glance at me, come within a twenty foot radius of me…
With the many ‘well wishes’, ‘good lucks’ and ‘you’re insane’ messages to help me begin I embark on the long, hard journey to loose weight, create endurance and become physically fit. No more yo-yo dieting, I am making life style changes that are healthy and will keep me going in the right direction. I am doing it for me, I am doing it under God’s orders, and it all begins with a fast.
As thunder rolls outside, I come to realize that I bought the wrong battery for my scale. So I run to my Wii Fit, those batteries are dead too… Great… I glance out my window, I can run to work and use the scale there… but it’s pouring down rain… sigh… perhaps I am not to know how much I weigh? Or more likely, how much I have to loose. Suffice to say, I know I am near 300 pounds. I will try and get to the store at some point today and weigh myself for a proper reading. Until then I will drink my Strawberry, Banana, Apple juice slowly to try to make it last longer… 🙂
I am also in need of that before picture…
Yesterday, was a long day. I had planned to eat all of my favorites for my ‘last meal’, but that didn’t really work out. The cafe I helped open, put so much of my blood, sweat and tears into, was closing. Somehow most of the crew that was there at the beginning was still there in the end. So together we took it apart, sold the last of our food and said goodbye. We finished the night by heading to the pub where we drank, remembered and toasted to new beginnings whatever those might be. So for me it was more then just the end of cheese, butter, oils and for a little while at least, food. It was the end of an era. The end of the days of working in the nice calm cafe when the deli became to overwhelming. Where will work now, when I need sanctuary from the inanity that is the deli? Yesterdays blog title would have been called: The End, because it was, in so many ways. But today is a new beginning, and it’s time to move forward.
Wake up. That’s always the best first step to any morning workout.
The next step and probably the hardest would be getting out of bed. You lay in bed, eyes tightly shut going through every single reason why you need and want to get up and workout.
‘I want to loose weight.’
‘I want to fit into smaller clothes.’
‘I want to feel better about myself.’
‘I need to be healthy.’
‘I have to get out of bed sometime before work.’ Etc.
After a good half hour to an hour you roll over, open your eyes and groan. You can do this! No I can’t! Yes I can…groan.
You sit up then growl, loudly. Hair goes up in a ponytail, then you dig out your workout clothes from the place you hid them hoping to never see them again. Finally after putting them on, and thinking of every excuse why you should not do this; ‘it’s way to hot outside!’ you roll out your yoga mat and do a warm up before grabbing your phone and music and hitting the pavement.
Ten minutes later your already wanting to turn around and are thinking of all the roads that will take you right back to your front door long before your chosen route has been completed. But with every fiber of will in your body you keep going straight when said shortcuts make there appearance as they always do.
‘I got out of bed and am already out here might as well finish this!’
You pass your landmarks silently screaming with joy that you made it this far, got to keep going.
You reach the last shortcut. Your only a mile from finishing your route, but your hot, thirsty, exhausted and you realize you haven’t actually finished your route is months, you always take that last short cut. So maybe this is not a shortcut, it is the route now. You know that’s a lie you tell yourself to try and make it right. You need to do the whole route eventually. That shortcut is coming; you have to make a decision. Finally you decide to just pretend you never saw the shortcut, opps you missed it! Have to finish the full thing now, there is NO turning back.
Suddenly there it is: home, Gatorade, air conditioning, a cold shower, a bottle of water and my bed, that of course is when you realize… you’re starving.
What does it mean when a neighborhood sign has been posted that says they will no longer be filtering our water? Instead they will be adding chemicals to it that will make it no longer safe to drink if you have kidney problems? Also your not going to want to put it in you fish tanks.
I get a lot of kidney infections, no matter how much water I drink; does that equal kidney problems? It happens so ofter that it no longer stops me from working and doing the things I need to do.
I don’t want to drink from bottles, for recycling reasons, but I don’t have nor can I afford a filter at home. I can get 40 bottles for $3, which will last a long time. Also, this is not my house, I might be moving in the next upcoming months…and I need a filter that will take out whatever chemicals they will be putting into the tap water.